I was born in 1972. 2015 just sounds so futuristic, even today. I think back to when I was a young child and never would have predicted my current life. Who could? (Warning: The subject matter of these next few entries might be cliche and naive, so if you have no tolerance for stuff like that I give you the option to stop reading now.)
I'll be honest. I think I'm going through the stereotypical mid-life crisis. Is this the place to talk about it? Well, it is a website devoted to my creative endeavors which would not be possible without the experiences of me, the artist, as a flawed human being. Maybe it will give you a better understanding of my work. Maybe it will give me one too. Either way, a good therapist is hard to find so until I do, this will have to suffice. If you're curious about my techniques in the studio and all that boring stuff, send me an email. I'd be happy to explain it all. For now however, I don't really want to talk about that. Anyone can learn what I do and if you do it long enough, you gain insight and experience. It's like anything you pour yourself into. No, I want to talk about the things that a lot of artists don't talk about. If they do, it's only with other artists or their close circle of friends. So why am I opening up to anyone who will read this? Because I feel hopeless. I feel lost. I feel alone. I feel fragile.
In the next few posts, I want to give a condensed document of my life up to the present as a cathartic and hopefully therapeutic exercise. I know I could write all this and not put a word out for public view, but deep down, I want people’s thoughts on any or all of it. I want to hear from anyone who will read this if you have similar feelings or have gone through similar situations, especially artists. I’m not looking for sympathy. Really. I am well aware that everyone struggles with something in their life. My situation is not exceptional. Some might even say I have a blessed life. (More on that in a later post.) I’m just trying to work through my own demons and if I can get some feedback, all the better.
Until next time,
Have a great January!